So, how are you doing? If all goes right, as you read this I will be “resting”, or on “vacation”. The truth is that I don’t really know how to do that. My father was a man who didn’t know how to relax. As I put the pieces together over the years as I have heard stories I now understand that work was my father’s “drug” of choice. He could outwork anyone and always felt like it wasn’t enough.
As we celebrate Independence Day, I remember distinctly a day where I woke up late in the morning and couldn’t figure out why. I suspect I was around 9 or 10 years old. It was a bright, summer sun shiny day and I had not been awakened at the crack of dawn to go out to the garden or do some sort of work that was always waiting on me somehow. I lay awake in bed trying to figure out why I had not been rousted out of bed, and then I remembered….it was the 4th of July. Obviously mom and dad had taken mercy on me that morning and not gotten me out of bed, and I remember feeling a sense of relief. It was a holiday and working 12 hours that day wasn’t going to be expected. I wasn’t going to fail dad that day.
I remember a couple of years before dad died; my sister-in-law asked him why he didn’t go on vacation. She explained that he and mom had the money to travel, with her and my brother taking over the family business they didn’t need to stay and look after things; he was free to move about with mom and go take it easy for a while. He responded, “I would rather take a beating than take a vacation”.
I don’t know if you are aware of what you pass down to your children, or nieces or nephews, but I suspect it is safe to say that it is more than you realize. Dad struggled with the concept of never being able to shut down and breathe, of always being “on duty” with no down time to just enjoy life. Now at the age of 45, I’m off trying to figure out how to breathe. Weird the lessons we have to learn in life.
The generation before us did the best they could with what they had and knew, and now it is up to our generation to take it to another level of understanding and change. Can you do it? Can you change the belief system you have had your whole life?
Perhaps you need to learn how to “breathe” too.